I hope everyone is having a great week so far! I cannot believe that tomorrow is the first day of March, but I’m so glad because February is my least favorite month ever. How is it that the shortest month of the year always seems the longest?
Anyway, I’ve been saying for awhile that I wanted to do a quick update on how things are going with the therapist and dietitian I started seeing at the beginning of the month. I see the dietitian every other week (unfortunately, she is not covered by insurance), and she is absolutely wonderful. I had serious doubts about seeing a dietitian and didn’t know how much she would be able to help me, because I thought I already knew what I needed to do to gain weight. This may be true, but it has helped so much to have someone to support and guide me. She thinks that my diet is very well balanced, but that I was not eating quite enough to sustain a healthy weight. She is working with me to gradually up my intake so that I can gain weight and get out of the bad place I’m in.
I also like this dietitian a lot because I feel like she is very knowledgable, not only about eating disorders, but about other things as well. She seemed to know a lot about thyroid issues when I explained to her the problems I was having. She also specializes in gastrointestinal health. I’ve had stomach problems for years, and sadly, increasing my intake has only made them worse. She recognizes that the stomach pains I am having are an obstacle to me reaching a healthy weight, and she wants to help me get to the bottom of them. I really hope she can help me figure out what’s going on so that I can fix it.
While I really like my dietitian, the therapist I am seeing is a bit different. The dietitian actually recommended this therapist to me, and I’ve been seeing her once a week. She is a very nice person, however, in the four sessions I’ve had with her so far, I don’t feel like I’m making any progress whatsoever. In addition to issues surrounding my eating and body image, I was really hoping to get help for my OCD and anxiety that has been negatively affecting my life for years. I told her this in the first session, and so far, we haven’t addressed any of it. She has been focusing on the roots of my problems, and thinks that childhood trauma may have played a role. I explained to her that apart from a strained relationship with my dad (which is thankfully getting better), I had a great childhood. I feel like she isn’t really listening to my concerns.
I’ve just been leaving every session feeling frustrated, which is something that has never happened with a therapist in the past. I feel like I have reached rock bottom and finally realized that all of my issues (the eating disorder, OCD, and anxiety) are preventing me from living the life I want, and I want nothing more than to overcome them. I’m not sure what I expected from a therapist because I know that no doctor can “cure” me of my anxiety. I have to help myself. I guess I was just hoping that I’d find a therapist who could give me some tools to help myself overcome these issues.
I have another appointment with the therapist on Saturday, and I am not sure what to do. I am very shy and am afraid to tell her that I’ve been leaving our sessions frustrated. I don’t want to hurt her feelings, but I also do not want to keep wasting my parents’ money. I talked to my mom about it, and she actually emailed my dietitian last night explaining my concerns (I really wish she wouldn’t have done this though).
Sorry for ranting, but I guess I just need some advice. Should I try to tell the therapist that I want to work more on my anxiety and OCD? How can I do this without hurting her feelings? Or should I try to find another therapist altogether? Any advice you could give would be much appreciated!
Have a wonderful day, guys!