My First Attempt at a Foodie Post

Hey there! So, I have been debating all this week whether or not I was going to post some pictures of my food, but I finally decided that I would! But before I do, I want you to know that…

A. I am not going to, nor do I ever plan to, post an entire day of eats. I think I would get way too obsessed trying to track and photograph every single thing I eat.

B. I tend to eat smaller portions only because I eat more often. I find that this way of eating works best for me, as I find it hard to stomach big meals. Also, I think eating more often gives me more energy. Every day, I also drink a supplement drink for extra calories to gain weight. I’d take a picture, but even my awesome photography skills couldn’t make a bottle of Boost or Ensure look pretty!

C. PLEASE DON’T COMPARE WHAT I EAT TO WHAT YOU EAT!!! I sound like a hypocrite because I am guilty of this, but it is something I am definitely working on.

Now without further ado, here are some eats from the past week or two (and I apologize in advance that my photography skills aren’t the best 🙂 )

Apple cinnamon Chobani (with extra cinnamon!), blueberries, cereal, and nuts.

A very Panera-esque dinner: Turkey sandwich with homemade broccoli cheddar soup, oyster crackers, and a glass of unpictured juice.

A yummy dinner! Mom’s turkey meatloaf (I’ll post the recipe on my Recipes page), small baked potato with sour cream/butter, and small side salad.

English muffin, half with almond butter and half with cream cheese and honey.

I saved the best for last!!! A slice of homemade pumpkin pie with whipped cream (of course)! Fall is ALMOST here!!!

Ok, I think that’s enough for now! I hope this post wasn’t too lame (my food isn’t all that exciting). Have a wonderful Labor Day weekend if I don’t post again before then!

I Survived!!!

So, I survived my first week back at school! Technically, the week isn’t over yet, but I managed to make my schedule so I have Fridays off! Of course, that means my other days are long. But I guess you can’t have it all, can you?

I remember when I was younger, I used to get so excited when it was time to go back to school. I loved going school shopping, and picking out all of my notebooks and folders (the ones with the cute puppies and kittens were the best!). I would anxiously await for my class schedule and teacher assignment to arrive in the mail. And then on the first day, my sisters and I would pose for pictures before we got on the bus.

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Going back to school now that I am in college is a lot different. Don’t get me wrong; I love school, and get excited to go back. But more than anything, I feel nervous. The night before my first day of classes, I literally got 3 hours of sleep, and spent the night tossing and turning in bed. Anytime that I know I will be around a lot of people, I get extremely nervous. I get all dizzy and my head feels foggy. When I am around other people, my confidence drops to like a zero. I feel like everyone around me is thinking that I am ugly/weird/awkward/etc. I don’t know why. I tell myself that I don’t care what others think of me, but I obviously must care.

I am so tired of this social anxiety holding me back. It’s very exhausting. I am afraid to participate in class, give presentations, eat in front of people, or even ask my professors questions. I avoid talking to people, which is exactly why I haven’t made any friends so far in college. I am missing out on so much because of this, and I want to change it, but I don’t even know where to begin. I am afraid that this is going to hold me back from accomplishing the things I want to do in life.

Sorry for rambling, but I needed to get that off my chest after this week at school. A lot of times, I feel like one of the only people who is so socially dysfunctional, and it really brings me down. I am so sleepy right now (this week really kicked my butt), so I think I am going to call it an early night.

Thanks to anyone who bothered to read this. Good night, and I hope to post again soon!

First Post!

Hi there!

Over the past few years, I have been silently lurking around some truly inspiring blogs. Reading these blogs has helped me so much in my recovery thus far, so I have finally decided to start my own! I am hoping to use this blog as a sort of journal to chronicle my recovery from anorexia and anxiety (I’ll talk about these more in a later post), and also to connect with others going through similar struggles. I want this blog will be a source of hope for me, as well as others who are suffering. I have finally reached a point in my life where I am just tired of living with this eating disorder, and hopefully this blog will give me the extra boost I need to push harder for recovery.

Since I am much more than an eating disorder, I also plan to use this blog to talk about other interests I have, share recipes, and just talk about whatever is on my mind at the moment. As I progress forward in recovery, I hope that my interests will expand to things other than food/calories, and that I will become the true young woman I am meant to be.

That’s all I have to say for right now! Take care.

Carli